This isn't my first journey into the world of the Blogger. I have been here numerous times before-each time with every intention of keeping it going but failing after a few months (or weeks). I have 3 blogs around here somewhere which I have somehow 'misplaced', but as they were from times in my life when I used blogging as therapy then I really don't mind that chances are nobody will ever see them. Or care about what is written there.
The trouble with me is that in the past I have used blogs as diaries. Therapeutic diaries. A place where I could let my innermost thoughts and feelings run free without the fear of a 'real' diary being found tucked away in a drawer. If I wanted people to read them then I could tell them where to look, without the fear of them being found accidentally.
Now though, my reasons for having a blog are completely different. I find myself constantly inspired by blogs such as www.traumaqueen.net and www.dooce.com - partly because of what they write about, but mostly because of their incredible talent at drawing a perfect picture in words. I can only dream of being able to write as well as those guys do, but the honesty and heart that goes into their postings makes me realise that what I write here doesn't need to be fancy or intricately written. It just needs to be me.
I have been through things in my life which to others are the stuff nightmares are made of. Those situations, those trauma's have made me the person I am today. I'm far from 'perfect', but what makes a perfect person anyway? I don't own my own home, I'm divorced, and the closest I get to seeing my youngest child is visiting his grave at the local Crematorium. I do, however, have a job which I adore, some good friends and a teenage Daughter who is an utter joy to be around. We might not be the media's ideal family, but we're as happy as pigs in shit-how many people can honestly say that?
So I shall pop on here from time to time. Not to try and be something I'm not, and not because I expect to have 73242 readers in six months time and banner ad's for random crap you'll never want or need. I shall come here simply because I can. This is my space, for me to write about whatever the hell I want to. If you don't want to read it then please feel free to click on the 'next blog' button at the top of the screen. If, however, you do want to read, then please pull up a chair, make yourself comfortable and I'll go make the tea :)
